Words of Wisdom February 19 2019

A few weeks ago I was feeling overwhelmed.  Life was moving fast and I felt like I couldn’t catch up or catch my breath.  Definitely not a feeling I enjoy.  I wasn’t sure what to do, but I did know I needed a break to catch my breath and give myself time to come back to my center.  Reflect and reignite my passion.  Even if it would slow down my work, I needed to take this break for me.  I needed balance.

One of the first things I did was find my journal from 2011.  Yes, 2011!!  I’ve been writing out my thoughts since I was a little girl.  I know that it is one of the essential keys to keeping me sane.  

But I found myself with writer’s block recently.  I didn’t know where to start.  I didn’t know what to write.  Where was my voice?

So I started at the beginning of the 2011 journal and began reading.  I read every page.  And as the pages progressed I wondered who this wise woman was giving me counsel?  Where did she come from?  How did she get my journal?  It’s almost like the ‘past me’ knew that the ‘future me’ was going to be in this funk and was going to need to hear her own authentic voice.  I began to feel myself come back to life…

 

Sept. 18, 2011:

“I can sense all sorts of amazing future things- which all tell me to relax; it’s going to be ok.  And so I am trying to give in to the magic of the Universe.  To the flow.  Surrender.”

 

Sept. 23, 2011:

“Your wildest dreams are the real reality.  The sole purpose of you being here is to create the life of your dreams and then LIVE it.“

 

Sept. 25, 2011:

“Remember constantly why you are here and who you are.  Divine.  You are as much God as God is.  You are as much made of what makes up the Universe as the Universe is.  Stop allowing ‘guilty thoughts’ of perceived mistakes stop you from receiving.  Monitor your thoughts.  Send loving energy into them, then send them away.”

 

Oct. 4, 2011:

“I believe in love.  I believe in abundance.  I believe in adventure and I believe they are for me.”

 

Dec.31, 2011:

“Thank you 2011 for changing me.  Thank you for experiences I will never forget.  I thank myself for fearlessly following my heart and creating the life of my dreams.”

 

Jan. 14, 2012:

“You are crazy to think anything less than beyond your wildest dreams is going to come true.  Have patience.  Be reborn.  You need this period.  Take it slow.  Be.  And all will fall into place perfectly.”

 

Who was this wise little lady giving me so many words of wisdom?  She knew exactly what I needed to hear!  How did she know?

I didn’t question it.  I let my own words sink in.  It’s like I had written those words for me to read at that very moment.  So, I took a 3 day meditation retreat and cut myself (mostly) off from electronics, social media, etc.,  I began spending more time being out in nature with my favorite books and my journal.  I got back to everything that makes me, me.  Everything that keeps me balanced.  

It does mean that I’m a little behind on what I need to be doing.  But that is ok; I’m the one who gave me the deadlines in the first place.  I can also change it.  I am rolling with it now.  I make sure I give myself the time I need to keep myself sane every day.